I suppose the most amazing thing is how, for so many years, 14 plus to be precise, I had come to accept the way I felt and performed my daily function as simply a part of getting old or in my mind as “well, it is just what I deal with”.  I had gone to so many doctors and read so many books, in hopes of “discovering” a reason I felt so incredibly lousy.  When asked, “hey how are you doing?” or “how are you today?” my comeback was “surviving the war”.  My body was so beat up with the years of daily headaches, migraines, debilitating body aches, fatigue that would “hit” me every day so intensely I would fight through the fatigue or run home just to “lie down for a second”.  I think back and wonder how I had the strength to even get through a day.  It is amazing, that as women we are able to deal with this huge drag on our lives and still function.

I functioned, because we, as women, are expected to as mothers and wives.   I own my own business also and there is no one but me to handle the many facets of the day. I would awaken to the new day feeling as though I had not slept a wink, my body so sore I could barely move. The headaches had become a part of the expected lifestyle, no aspirin, Hydrocodone medicines or prescribed migraine medicines relieved my headaches, so I finally quit taking anything because nothing seemed to work. The brain fog was constant and stronger at different times of the month. At times, my eyes even had difficulty in focusing.  But, the most amazing thing is that of all the doctors and homeopaths, chiropractors and professionals I spoke with in hopes of helping me knew nothing for my relief and at times I felt that they thought I was a hypochondriac.  My moods rolled up and down like the ocean in a storm. Needless to say I was not happy nor was I the person I once knew. And the worse part was that I felt that I had to learn to deal and mask myself in order for people to not think anything was wrong.

I could go on and on as to the impact this made on me, my family and my marriage.
For years people thought I was mentally unstable, I was unable to participate in activities
because of how exhausted I constantly was. And life had become a chore. It is amazing to me to look back and realize that only 6 months ago I found “Lenny” again. I can not even begin to explain how beautiful it is to wake up in the morning and not have a headache, not have the body aches.  I have my sense of humor back, my patience and tolerance level is huge.  I am happy again. I enjoy my son who is fourteen; I laugh at his silly teenage behaviors and delight in them.  I enjoy my work and still have energy at the end of the day. I live in a world again that I have not seen for years, and in retrospect I realize that I was suffering a war.  Sadly, I no longer am married; my husband could not tolerate me after 13 years of marriage and divorced me.  But, now, my head is clear and my emotions are stable.  I realize what I lived through and what I will not have to ever return to. 

I share with women every day, when I hear their complaints and refer them to Dr. Hotze and his amazing staff.   I am alive again because of them. And for that I am thankful. 

Best Regards,
Lenny

Smiles.

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